Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Half satisfied - better than not at all !

Dustin, this one got me.  Not like understood me, but I went on a second date with him. Sarcastic son of a bitch, and something is clearly really wrong with him.  Perhaps it is the fact he was told this summer he only had 5-6 years to live, but still does not leave his house.  Damn, the hook up was great – just what I needed.  He paid attention to details – I said I liked the Beatles, he took the damn Beatles CD to every room we played in.  He was a poker player but didn’t get mad when I beat him at cards.  

But…just a horny little man. Kind of reminded me of some other douchebags, the way they used to force themselves on me, maybe that’s why I liked him.  Clearly I have a type.  I mean, hey – I love sex. He was sweet – he tipped toed quietly not to wake me up in the morning, made me coffee – but I over stayed my welcome on that one…which I am kind of glad I did. He would not have been good for me.  

He would have completely engulfed my need to be ‘wanted’ and caring and sweet.  I don’t want that. I'm ready for someone in my life who drives me to be a better person, someone who challenges me and questions my intentions and ruffles my feathers.  Someone who is a man that is not afraid of an independent woman.  I have friends, I want to hang out with them.  I love my job, I want to work late. I know you have friends, I want you to spend time with them. I want to go to California, I am going to go to California.  I want someone to take random adventures with me and appreciate the spontaneity of life. 

I am a hypocrite because I envy those people who have found that someone they can spend 100% of their time with and stay home at night and just chill…but I don’t want that type of relationship.  I want random.  I want to go to a local art show on a Thursday, then have a picnic in the snow on Friday, right after volunteering to walk dogs at the local park.

What I learned I want from a guy from Dustin: someone who pays attention to the little things, someone who is well read and tells me what books to read.

What I learned I don’t want from a guy from Dustin: A hermit, when I tell you I don’t care what we do it is not because I am a lame chick who wants the man to make all the decisions. It is because I truly do not care what we do.  If you said, hey lets try out curling…great! What color shirt should I wear and how do we rent equipment. 

Here's to finding someone soon who can challenge me!

Love, 
The girl who left half satisfied :)

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

> I am a hypocrite because I envy those people who have found that someone they can spend 100% of their time with and stay home at night and just chill…but I don’t want that type of relationship. I want random. I want to go to a local art show on a Thursday, then have a picnic in the snow on Friday, right after volunteering to walk dogs at the local park.



Why can't those people be one in the same? Someone who wants to stay in AND someone who wants to have random adventures with you? THAT is the person you should be looking for!

A Girl's Gotta Eat said...

I know! I have been looking for them for the longest time - it is not as easy as it seems. I also find that it is not the characteristics of people that matter - rather the point that someone enjoys your company and everything you do with them. If you know anyone who is both that person - let me know :)

Anonymous said...

Hehe, I'll keep my eyes open for ya!